46 PADUMAWATI. [93 once more what he hath lost, and she brought the parrot and gave it to the king Heed thou my words; I was not vain. I but wished to test thine affection, O my love. Wouldst thou destroy for so small a fault one who hath faithfully been thy slave from year's end unto year's end. (So pitiless art thou, that) even though one humbly bend his neck before thee, thou dost not dismiss him without an order for his death. Even when I meet thee, thou art as it were far away: and hence, O dear one, is my heart full of fear (that thou lovest me no longer). I thought that thou dost pervade me alone, yet now I look and see that thou art enshrined in every heart. Whether Queen, or whether slave-girl, she alone is good, on whom thou showest mercy. No one can conquer thee. The Bhõjal and Vara-ruci are defeated before thee. But one doth not learn to seek for thee, till after one hath lost himself.'? 1 Regarding Bhoja. see v. Ixxv. Vara-ruci, the celebrated grammarian, was one of the 'Nine jewels,' who attended his court. 3.e., Had seen that I was not an individual, but only an emanation from the Sapreme. The well-known Vēdāntik theory. The whole verse may be interpreted throughont in a Vēdāntik sense.
